Lunch today was NS Chicken Barley Soup and I am totally out of groceries so I went to the deli downstairs and made myself a little side salad with lettuce and spinach, cucumbers, random chick peas not many, red onions, sprouts, and a few crunchy chinesey things again not many, all topped with Asian Sesame dressing. It was good I like that dressing. It was pretty smally it only cost me $2 and they weigh the salads which can get you in trouble. Anyways that gives you an idea of the size.

So heres why I’m concerned. This is going to sound dumb but my boss just said they are going to sublease some of the floors that we use in the building and people from those floors are going to be moving down to our floor. 2 guys were apparently walking around scoping out offices they want and said they wanted my bosses so she got pretty annoyed and I am going to be devastated if I have to move cubes. I never had my very own cube until this job and its perfect! Coner big cube nobody behind me so nobody can sneak up on me and I have 3 windows. Its so nice and peaceful. Plus nobody is in the cube next to me so its quiet. I’m gonig to be really P.O’d if they make me move.

Sorry thats my rant for the day.

Again as I mentioned no groceries in my household (that are mine at least haha) so I have a honey crisp apple (that has seen better days) and a TJs Blueberry greek yogurt I found in the back of my fridge. I’m not too happy that I’m going to have yogurt twice in one day but what can you do. I’ll try to make it to the store to stock up tonight. I got inspired by Kath’s tgiving challenge so I took a look at the grocery store website and made of list of items that I need and which ones are on sale. So My total shouldn’t be more than $30.

Tonight I’m planning on using the elypitcal for 30 min while reading my notes for class and then hopefully I can squeeze in some weights but Im not sure if I’ll have time. We shall see. I need to cram for my test tomorrow!

Last night I did 10 min on the eliptical and tried the stair climbing machine for the first time. Like the machines that look like a staircase. Holy workout. I only lasted 10 min. It was such a good workout. I’m going to start incorporating that crazy machine more. I also did my strength training routine. Then I came home and had a bunch of steamed green beans and baby carrots with some NS meal which was meh. I also through in some of TJ’s tereyaki tofu. I’ve been on such a tofu kick lately. I’ve liked it for awhile but lately i’m craving it for some reason. For dessert I had a little bit of light vanilla soy milk and an NS cookie. Then finished my project and went over the the bfs. As you may have noticed I’ve cut down the number of workouts I’m doing since I’m consuming less calories on this diet. My goal is 3 times a week.

This morning I had a half caffeneited cup of coffee, NS cranberry granola bar and an Oikos vanilla yogurt. I have a pear for a mid morning snack too.

So on to the title of my blog. I occasionally email back and forth with my college love. Now let me clarify my bf now is my 1st REAL love but this guy was def my college love. You know the guy you wasted the majority of your college years (and even the year after) going back and forth with. Anyways I think deep down he is a good guy (really deep though like you have to really get in there haha) but he is so confused in life I think. First of all Van Wilder style he didn’t graduate college until 2 years after we all did. Then hasn’t had a real world job yet. I got an email from him today saying he has been avoiding talking to me because I have my life together and he doesnt and I think it finally hit him he can’t be a college kid anymore. I feel bad for him but I think its funny how to him I have my life together. And I mean I kind of do but just comes to show you that none of us have it ALL together. I mean I’m still torn about career changing and all that jazz. Anyways just thought I would share this interesting piece of info for my randomness of the day.

I better ge to work. Until lunch my friends.

PS I can’t find my camara cord lately hence no pics. I need to go digging around my room tonight.

I ate lunch around noon and had a salad with come cucumbers and Woodstock dressing. This stuff is good its the first bottle I’ve bought.  I think I still like Goddess dressing better though.  I also had an NS split pea soup and a cookie. Whoops! I wont have dessert tonight and the cookie will be my dessert. It was one of those break apart and bake tollhouse kind. Always a nice little treat. People keep bringing this stuff into the office!

The bf was having a bad day so I met up with him for a few so he could vent. Then I came back to work and tried to get motivated until about a few minutes ago when I grabbed my afternoon snack of cottage cheese. I have some grapes which I haven’t gotten to yet. I’m also sipping on some decaf tea.

It’s kind of funny to me how I feel like so many people my age (i’m 25) are kind of in a quarter century crisis, like not knowing what to do with their lives or their careers or which path to take. Its so hard! I went through that and started exploring my interests and that is how I landed on wanting to become an RD. Its like you need to do a little soul searching you know. When you are 22 and graduate you have no idea what you want to do you just know what you should be doing. Then by 25 you have been out of school for a few years and I think come to the realization that maybe what you planned isnt what you enjoy.  I love fashion and my dream job was always to become a buyer or work as a stylist something like that. But you know what for me that isn’t realistic, maybe if i was single I would just get up and move to NYC and start but that isn’t the case. So for me becoming an RD fulfilled another interest as well as can be seen as somewhat practical. Minus the having to go back to school for a long time part haha.  Anyways point being its tough but pretty common and I think everyone in this situation should take the time to explore and see what they can see themselves doing and what makes them happy. 

Thats my speech for the day haha. My bf was so down today and I told him something similar. So I thought I would share my thoughts and experiences as well

Ok back to real life, I’m planning on going to the gym tonight and doing some cardio and weights. Then finishing up my project then prob going to the bfs.

Had my leftovers from dinner last night for lunch. I love leftovers for the most part the flavors really get to sink in I feel like.  I was pretty proud of myself last night too.  I took half of the pasta dish and immediately packed it in a container for lunch today. Otherwise I’m sure I would have gobbled it up and eaten too much.  I made 1 cup of pasta so for lunch i had about 1/2 a cup.  I was in a rush this morning so I forgot to pack other lunch items. I did pack a south beach diet 1% cottage cheese for a snack though. I had some yummy carrots I could have packed. Oh well. I could run down and get a side salad from the deli downstairs I guess, hmmm, decisions.  I’ll keep you posted.

I have a random comment for the day for you finally: I emailed Kate from Winning Friends With Salad the other week to ask her how she is overcoming her emotional/binge eating.  She gave some great tips and posted them on her blog as well. What tips do ya’ll have?  Don’t be shy please comment I would love to hear what everyone has to say.  For me it’s a tough one, I have been trying to eat slower though. Completely finishing chewing each bite, taking a sip of water after each bite. This seems to help since I stop gobbling down the food and let myself get full.  Then for the mental struggle I have been trying to question myself, do you need this cookie, are you even hungry? Then reassuring myself hey you can eat one later when you get hungry if you want.  One thing Kate mentinoed to me which was eye opening and so simple is she doesn’t allow herself to binge anymore. This is huge I think. No more excuses just stop doing it. Cold turkey.  Ok i’m rambling I’ll stop now.  But PLEASE comment this is such a common problem now a days I think it helps to hear from people.

I almost forgot today was 9/11. I thought there was going to be a TON of traffic here in DC since they are doing a memorial at the Pentagon today. But no it was fine. I also left the house pretty early though. The radio station I listen to was talking about where they all were that day when they heard about the crashes. It’s crazy to think how long ago it was already! I was a freshman at Elon and had just gotten out of my 8am College Writing class. I was walking through our student center and saw everyone huddled around all the tv’s in the building. I was half asleep and just wanted to get back to my dorm for a nap so wasn’t paying attention just thought it was odd. Then my mom called me mid-nap and told me. It didn’t hit me until I turned on the tv and saw the footage. And like many others tried to call my bff in NYC who was going to school there and couldn’t get through.

So randomness for the day isn’t that random but: Where were you when you heard about the attack?

It’s prety interesting how every generation has one of these moments where people can remember where they were when they heard like for example the JFK assassination for our parents.

Ok on a lighter note and back to the food. I had a snack of raw broccoli dipped in Annie’s Goddess dressing last night while watching Pride and Prejudice with the roomies. Such a good movie!

This morning I started out with a Carnation Instant Breakfast drink (CIB). And some watermelon and kiwi from Whole Foods.

No coffee this morning I don’t want to get addicted again. So I’m going to power through!

Lunch date with the bf today!! I haven’t seen him since Monday since he’s been traveling for work.

So on the menu for lunch today is some cut up pineapple from Whole Foods and an Oikos vanilla yogurt. I see that the cool yogurt to eat lately is Chobani which I’ve been wanting to try but can’t find anywhere. It sucks.  I actually really like the Oikos though I’ve tried vanilla and honey so far. The nutrition facts look pretty good too, not much sugar, good ingredients. No crazy fructose.

 I also have a snack for later, a Kind Fruit and Nut Bar. Today’s flavor is Banana & Oatbran. I’ve tried a couple of these bars and really enjoy them. The best one so far was somthing like Almond Coconut. MMMM that one was good and of course goes along with my recent coconut obsession. I’ll let you know how this one is in my dinner post.

So I thought of something to spice up my blog…My friends and fam know me for my randomness including my random comments and questions.  So I thought I could add this to my blog daily.  Now this is totally random stuff that tends to pop in my head constantly.

Here is today’s:

Randomness for the day…

So I noticed that the bathroom at work has a ginormous bottle of Listerine. Which made me think of after lunch teeth brushers. How many times a day do ya’ll brush your teeth? Do you think that extra after lunch brush makes a difference? Or is it over kill? This question of course made me think of what the bf told me the other night about how bad having flouride in your mouthwash is. So what are your thoughts about that too? I personally am a morning and before bed brusher.

PS For all your Gossip Girl fans New York Mag has commentary the day after each episode which is pretty funny and entertaining:

http://nymag.com/daily/intel/2008/09/gossip_girl_is_royally_pimpin.html